This is only the beggining

scared

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 01:51:37 GMT

So today it has been snowing all day. Got out of school early, just kinda hung out at home... then around 5 something my father calls me to tell me that im not going to be able to go to middletown tonight which is ok i understood the roads are pretty bad.. Then he says "ugh ugh!! jered this truck in front of me just hit the gaurd rail" im like "seriously?" and then he said "yeah" then like a split second later i hear "OH SH*T" then BOOM!!!!!! (glass breakn... and just a loud smack) I kinda had a skip heart beat moment :(.. well then i was like "dad?..dad??? DAD!!!??" i was so scared.. i mean just the possibilitys scares me to think about.. then he said "I just got hit head on.." im like oh my !! "are you ok?" he said "yeah im ok just kinda stuck... my car is pretty much totaled" and then he went on saying ill call you back dont worry im ok!

I thank god for my father and that he is still alive...
I love my father very much even though it may not always seem that way or sound that way

-Jered

"Christ is not a fashion"

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 07:36:52 GMT

What is this you speak of?,
words of wisdom,
Is that what you call them?,
how dare you speak them to me,
do you know me?,
can you know what my heart is,

for making accusation at me,
maybe you should think about yourself,
think about the image you pursue,
and why you pursue it,
I know in my heart I love the lord,
and a man in a suit isnt going to tell me otherwise,
clothes on my back can't be a sin,
people always say "you gotta look nice for church",
is that why you go?... to look nice?,

I go for the lord,
I go to be renewed,
so next time you feel like being perfect,
think twice before you speak your,
"words of wisdom"

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 07:57:40 GMT

Please dont come here presenting what you always do,
Ive always blacked out what passes threw,
Step side the way for a new reform,
for your words are stale.. boring and torn

Your fakiest truth,
your stradtigic love,
all just a tradition you seem to love,
burried in my heart i seek to find,
a truth that i cant unwind

for i dont want to fall in line,
being the same boring lie,
i want to discover and i want to be new,
so when i say god bless you.
im not lieing to be polite.
im actully bring the joyful light,

i feel the need to write this out,
because i still live life with a dobt,
i open my heart to let you in,
but right when you step up,
i let someone else win,

i want to be stong with your glory,
for it surpases any mans senority,
i speak this out loud again,
so when you step up,
ill let you in...

BLister

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 06:55:27 GMT

You burn, You burn,
Dont ask for it now!!
your selfish actions,
Your unthoughtful being!
Nothing can save you,
You are finally getting your judgment..

stuborn.. Thickheaded...
THAT^

for..
The rest of your life in..
BLISTERS...
Pain and sorrow..
All because you didnt accept

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 19:47:52 GMT

This is the time when emotions flood,

People tend to show lies in exspession,

why in the time of love and joy,
it really is hate and lonsome? :(

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 03:44:25 GMT

Never let us meet this way again,

I never want see you this way again,

How can you be this way again,

Living in your world of sin,

Never let me meet you on your knees,

I never want to see you on your knees,

How can you ask god please,

When every guy see's you on your knees,

[Friendships arnt to impress, if you dont pretend... if you dont act.. you will truly find your true friends.. substanced only lead to a dark world of lies and betrayal.. I love the life of god and I will never feel guilty for leaving back sinful habbaits.. because I know I am forgiven, and I will never let old news come to me unless they need hope]

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 07:01:10 GMT

to know is not to learn,
for learning takes the knowledge away,
corruption takes over into our minds,
like a fungus that can never be broke.

Never let curruption lead you into life,
become your own person,
live life to presue the one thing there is to

WOo0o0

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 03:34:10 GMT

SO Yeah ready for Christmas!!

WOO wooo WOO wooo
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o OK!

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 02:59:16 GMT

Your face is cold,

much colder than Ive ever intisapated,

I was so scared to see you there,

but as I wonder, I find my self able to bare,

I'm so happy for the life you gave me,

I'm so thankful for the wisdom carried threw you on to me,

There will never be a day i wont think about you,

for you are the only thing that kept me going,

your HEART pured the love and happiness of a wonderful life,

I love you always

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 00:08:12 GMT

To You,

Everything I've done to impress you has failed. I put my self at your feet just to see your smile. A hole life of being manage by your unforgiving words, and not once did you thank me. NEVER! have you once helped me! NEVER!! have you seen the struggle of life because i would never allow it NEVER!!! have you felt the despare. I only owe it to one person to see that you finally live a life. I pay it to my self for I have struggle far to long. I shall rise a hand of shame on you, blistering the sweetest face. My uncontrollible laughter takes over in the pleasure of all that I have held back. I did never mean to do what I have done to you but only to releas myself from the evil grip you had on me. Please forgive me.. PLEASE FORGIVE ME !

Your LOVING,

Husband

Un-Titled

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 22:14:20 GMT

I'm.. Lost in the steps that I take,

Lost.. In the binding roads I've travled,

In.. My heart i feel the pain growing,

My.. Friends have lost me,

Friends.. Is the only thing that matter,

Is.. My trust that I have taken from them,

My.. Heart is the only thing i can give back.

Sad song

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 00:50:26 GMT

[I have made a huge step to change my life and OH yes its workin!]
-support of my friends
-talkin to my mom
-READING

I hope to grow a strong spirit and also become wiser and more knowlegalbe on life!

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 20:35:42 GMT

So umm... Livejournals are gone :( ill still write go check out my .. Myspace.. it seems to be where the crowd is heading!

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/5146585

Wadda weekend (of break)

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 22:22:35 GMT

I had the sum of the best times of my life the past 2 weekends including break!!
i would go into detail.. but it takes along time to type and i dont want to do it ok!?

Jered

Via Life

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 16:56:38 GMT

So i had one of thee most amazing times I've had in awhile. This past Friday i went to Indiana with my bestfriends... [this may sound common to sum people, hang'n out with your bestfriends but ive been gone] but any way Tyler, Jordan, and Joel came and picked me up from skool. Then we went back to Tedo and Jordos house. We left for indana at like 5-7 somewhere around that time. There were some fun times in the car ride, and everything is better with a video camera. After we got there we snuck into the MeWithOutYou show it was very exciting! Then we went out to eat with daniel and maranda and buckey, I also found out steak n' shake has ranch dressing.(the hard way)

The next day i met some other members of The Red Racer i like them all very much!! alil too much.

Im so happy that im gettn back to where im suppost to be :)
lovn life
-Judah

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 03:20:56 GMT

CLEANED UP... done w/ it

a summer to put in the past...

I experience life in a different perspective and i think i liked it the old way

I have been denying sum 1 for 2 long... conviction has always been strong

But its never to late to go back , so im taking my chance right now and coming back :)

i love my friends for always being there:)

-Jered

My car is fixed!

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 17:46:29 GMT

hey my car is finally fixed... My tail light was broke but its not.. now..

umm i cant wait for the weekend.. to go work at kings island :(

yeah so umm i dont know..

[Jered]

Wow

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 16:25:19 GMT

Alot has happend....

There is too much "loving" going around..

Im glad i have all these awesome friends, at the same time i wish i didnt have them i love them all very much and at any moment i could be in a situation where im strongly attracted to one of them then i cant be open about it because it would be awkward my decision to not like anyone in my group was prolly best but its almost impossible not to ..when your so close to a person its hard not to start likeing them to the next level...

I just need to find a pretty christian scene girl ....[lol]

[Jered]

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 17:09:55 GMT

hey its me....[of course]
im at skool and so bored..
i hung out w/ jess and jordo and steph for awhile then we went to play halo that was pretty fun ! then sum mexican called up jordan and we went to her house [susan, aka the little gothic girl] we played a fun game i forget what it was called. then we went to and hung out and ate food at my house after we dropped off jordan.

[Jered]

shot down

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 23:52:59 GMT

Today i woke up for "the most important thing in my life".... skool

well anyway i had an ok day i fell asleep [im such a rebel] its all because of the things we learn about... im sick of the aids and herpes, im scared enough now i get a visual image its kinda not plesent to the tummy: : :

so here is a list of things to do

-GrOW my HAIR out

-Get plenTY of MONEY

-Meet A PreTY [scene] GIrl ......... [Maybe]

-Run ArOUND NakeD IN a park [again]

-Go SwIMMing At cesears creEK at 2 am

-Go camping RANDOMLY [if thats possible]

Ect.

I LOVE YOU ALL AS THE DUCK WOULD SAY TO HIS FLOCK

[Jered]

YEah

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 23:39:20 GMT

So i said sorry...
I just felt so left out,
things i shouldnt have said..
made me feel wrong.....

[sike... im not writting poetry]
Anyways i still dont know about the hole one group drama thing..
i like hangin out in small groups so i think ill stick to that...

There is a girl that i like and im going to not say who it is b/c then i get those fun convo's "who do u like" :)

[Jered]

Yup...

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 22:56:42 GMT

So it seems that we are a sex club...
just b/c of one night of random things
people build off soon we all will be having sex with each other
i wish i was never apart of it.. its growing to be sumthn bad
at first it was funny
now its gone wrong...
i guess this is wat happens in a group so close

i hope it changes

[JERED]

HEY

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 17:59:02 GMT

long time!!! i was toldi need to write about someone and that someone is specail .... she has wanted to talk to me for awhile i got jealous for a little bit also ... well i cant get into my email so ill read it some other time :(

Lost??

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 18:40:53 GMT

Well yeah not in the best of moods...
ive been thinking alot latley and like it seems
like i have an awesome time all the time
but in reality it sucks alot..
when i hang out with my friends it seems that drama takes over and when im with small groups i have a bad gossiping habbit [who doesnt]

I feel like there are standards for "the group" ..and if you dont fit it your pushed aside...
i love everyone and i hope no 1 takes this offensive [if you even read this] but i dont think im going to hang out in our "large group" as much as i used too..

and i will prolly still do it.. but i prolly wont like it.

love you all....

[Jered-"Mommas Boy"-Vitek]

Update!

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 22:29:30 GMT

Here's my update....

$$
=car

orentation
= suck!

freinds
= AWESOME

Jered
= That man you dream about every night!